Ghost in the Shell

What?

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 06:59:35 GMT

Today is my Birthday! It's almost over. Who am I? I've ask this everyday of my life. I'm treated well by my friends. I certainly have begun something great in life but I still don't understand money. How to keep it, why to keep it, is this what makes me free? My time, our environment.

Lately I've been doing a lot of volunteering. I don't get paid if you say monetary,no, I gain nothing from that.I do gain sanity and willingness to try, make an effort. I have good friends but they're not interested in queer ativities, dancing, biking, or just being out. They are perhaps stoned, and forgetful at times, this causes stagnation which becomes boredom to me. Just they have settled a little more than me. Lately I've been doing some good biking a little of Forest Park and the Sandy river delta. I want to get better I just need to ride more. Which I do, especially since I fell off my bike a few weeks ago. Anyways hopefully I'll lead a more integrated life. Today I'm 23.

Thank You all! Remember memories aren't always accurate!

I'm back home! Yeah!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 20:54:11 GMT

I'm in Portland once again. Hopefully to stay awhile. This summer was awesome I met great people, learned how to drive a little better, and just got more experience in life. Now I'm looking for a new job(NOT RETURNING TO CAMP) this was a big decison. At the resort this summer I got worked a lot, it was fun but not really. Anyways this shall be an adventure.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 01:17:59 GMT

Yeah, I'm home for a couple of days. I finally can be in the real world. I love the forest but it's starting to get cabin fever like and well there's really no where to get pot. Port Angeles is definetly dry. Work has been interesting, I work a lot a it gets really hot in the kitchen but my co-workers have help me make it. We have lots of fun afterhours.

Looks like in early November I'm going to connecticut to visit my ex-roommate from Sol Duc. She's awesome and should be a great experience.

In CANADA!

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 09:01:49 GMT

I'm in Victoria, Canada, it's kinda cool I just got here 2 hrs ago though. No one from work came with me so I'm by myself. It's all good. I'm only staying for 2 days but I should have a interesting time. I wish I brought more money b/c the hostel cost pretty much wiped me out. All yeah and waiting for the ferry at the bar also did it. Work is hectic but still cool. I really like Olypic and Port Angleels is a neat town. These dang Canadiens are quite weird!

Sol Duc

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 19:40:00 GMT

Yo, this place is aweosme. It's smaller than most resort I've been but I like the people who work with me. Last week I took some fnecing lessons and I've been doing palm thrust and elbows. It's totally strenghten me up. My backyard is a National Park. It's so exciting. We have full run of the pool and springs after hours. Not to much drinking or partying going on. Just ah healthy dose now and then. My job is chill, just cooking and shit. One the that stuck is no cellphone service for miles. We don't have the internet either, my roomate and I are in Port Angeles now at the library. My first day off. Not even 2 days just one b/c I'm going to work on the line tomorrow instead of the deli.

The place is chill for now, I miss home though. My friends I miss a lot!

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 00:47:24 GMT

It seems my grandma has been having severe health problems. Last week she was in the hospital for a few days and next week she has 3 days of testing. She has had a lot of health issues happen to her over the years. She's a real strong lady,it seems most generations before mine endured much much more. I've been real sad today, I almost cryed in public.

Soon Mankind will fall! It's an inevitable process. Earth will regulate itself unless we destroy the fabric of life.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 06:39:08 GMT

Ahh, yes soon I'll get more pics. I still need to develop Japan pics and a bunch of others. Then find a way to get them on. I think we have employee computers at Sol Duc.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 06:34:40 GMT

SO today I went over my aunt and uncles house. My little cuzz was at a parade so I chatted with my aunt and uncle for awhile. Then my uncle and I went to Red Robin for some food. My uncle has the fattest car a 2005 Chrsyler 300M. I shoudn't support gas guzzling cars but my uncle can afford it though(cars are bad for environment). Jaylen is 6 now and he's freaking tall. Today we had a water fight and I go really wet. Then we sat out on the hammock and he read to me. It was cute. I don't see them enough, I'm really bad at seeing my family. I love hanging with them it just I'm kinda flaky when it comes to rotating people in my life. Usually I just hang with Claire, Anton or Keith. And every wednesday I see like 30 of my highschool friends. The last 2 weeks I've been going out way to much. My bank account is now under 10 bucks. Very sad I blew alot of money. It was all worth it though, goodtimes!
I'm going to miss it here but I know this is home and I can always come back. I will miss claire the most!

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 00:53:41 GMT

Looks like I'm headed to Olympic National Park. I just got offered a job at Sol Duc Hotsprings. They called me, I haven't even filled out any applications yet. I mean my fil is accessible by emplyers but I thought I would atleast fill an application out. I just hope I don't have to take a drug test. I f I do, oh well, I guees I have to buy some stuff. This is one of the few places I actually want to go.

Sorry my grammar and stuff is terrible.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 22:54:11 GMT

Last night was one of the most beautiful nights I've seen in awhile. We had a big thunderstorm, I wish I had pics. My friends Claire and I tracked the storm pattern for hours until it got here, than we just looked outside. I should have got pics. The lightning didn't even really touch ground it was like cloud to cloud lightning. There was also a rainbow.
I'm at Loran's house now(claire's mothers) just chillin with the dogs. Claire had to work a overtime shift last night. She got paid a lot of money. But had to stay up over 28 hrs. They were split shifts. Good thing today is here day off. I'm waiting for here to call so we can go out to dinner tonight.
Claire's pretty straight, she's my bestfriend who I love to death. It's hard being around her sometimes we know each other so well. I can't wait for her brother Ethan to get back. I miss my frisbee buddy. He's in Miami visiting their father.

Talking about fathers i still managed not to call mine. But I think he want to talk with me. It also looks like he has chosen a new profession as a Mortage Broker, hehe. He probably works around all his pastorial duties, gosh my dad is so lame. I should call him but I don't really feel like it. It has been 2 years though.

Ending of camp beginning of summer

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 00:51:57 GMT

Lat thursday was my last day of camp for the spring session. This summer I'm very unsure of what I'm doing. Stay here or travel somehwere? Yesterday I saw a friend graduate from Oregon State University. It was weird being there and knowing this is ur class the class u would have graduated with if u went to school. It was just a experience I will remember for awhile.

Claire and I have been hanging out a lot the last few days, it has a been joyous and bitter but as of now we're alright. I love her alot!

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 19:44:54 GMT

The Rose Festival has begun and tonight is the Starlight Parade. I'm not sure if I want to see the parade or go see Tsunami Bomb.
A big reason I haven't aplied at any resorts jobs yet is b/c I wanted to be in Portland around this time june. Whatever I decide it's going to be fun.

I almost died at 6;20 this morning.

Mon, 30 May 2005 02:29:57 GMT

So this morning I almost died on my way home. It was from the stupiest thing ever falling asleep at the wheel. My friend was driving and I of course was sleeping(bad thing to do on road trips if ur a passenger and the driver is as tired as u). Well I don't want to really tell the story. The car and everyone made it ok but we did do a few cookies. Good thing we have grassy median area.

In other news Sasquatch ROCKED! I love Modest Mouse!
To bad it was so fucking hot there, Extremely. The Pixies didn't have as much moshing as I thought wqould be but that's ok. All the bands were great but I don't really like Kanye West only some of his beats but he's not tight at all.

Tonite going to see a band at the Doug Fir with Claire and Ellen it should be real interesting. I don't really know whose playing but hopefully groovy music. Claire and Ellne have nver been to the Doug Fir, I hope they like it b/c I really do.

2 more weeks of camp than I'm semi-free! YEAH!

Fri, 27 May 2005 23:55:10 GMT

This weeken I'm going to Sasqautch Music Festival. It should be tight, it has taken me forever to get the tickets. I promised my friend months ago I would go. Then I decided I wouldn't but felt bad so now I'm going. The sad thing about it is I know more bands than he do that's going to to be playing. Now I'm at claire's mothers house. I love this place! I gotta get off now Claire wants to hang out. 2 more weeks and I'm finished with this session of camp.

gone with the wind

Sat, 14 May 2005 18:33:18 GMT

Ahh, yes, last Wednesday I came to town for the nite. It was awesome! I didn't go to bed until 4 am the next morning. And then to work at 11. I went to this bar my friend Jenny took me to and found like 15 of my other friends there, that I haven't seen since like before I left. It was so overwelming seeing these people. I even met some new associates. I guess they meet every Wed or so for 1.50 micro brews. Some kind of special nite.

Ok, I have to finish the story later b/c I dislike typing and I haven't been outside in like a day. I've been a real slacker lately. Well this weekend, Then tomorrow I go back for another week of work.
GREEN ROCKS! lush, vivid colors

Go watch APPLESEED! I love ANIME!
Go watch UNLEASHED with Jet li

Heading to the Crater!

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 18:07:42 GMT

Yea, like the otherday I came to town got shit faced drunk passed out at my friend Claire's. I say it all the time I'm not doing that again, it really sucked, I puked alot. Well Claire aready thinks I'm a drunk, so that didn't help anything. It's like the first time since I got back that I got shitfaced, oh well, she can have that and many other images in her head of me. Yes, times have been good here with my bestfriend. We're going to spend the next 4 days together visiting Eugene,Ashland, Crater Lake and Bend. I'll get some pics but don't know when I'll get them up. I have no time it's really sad I need better time management I've seen like my family and some other friends who are desperate to hang. I should feel terrible but I don't so, oh well. I did watch my little cousins soccer game last week it was so cute he scored 2 goals.
The green machine is doing very well. I like to get high! I can't deny it anymore. Not in the woods at work though. It's very tempting! So yeah Bright Eyes coming next week, I'm going hell yeah!

PEACE to the middle east!

Never here

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 16:40:12 GMT

Been kinda busy since I've been in town. I'm working at camp so I don't spend much time in town just in the woods with a great view of Mt. Hood. Got a good friend to work with me it's pretty cool. This friday going to see 'Show me the Pink' hell yeah their awesome. Can't wait to see them. Yes, planning a trip for Costa Rica, anyone wanna come? It's going to be sweet!

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 06:12:14 GMT

Yes, they let me pass I'm at the airport now. It has been a long journey now I will have a 9 hrs flight to seattle. There's way to many people in this country.

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 12:44:27 GMT

This is a famous samurai warrior or something. We went to a castle in Sendai but it's not a castle anymore, but they call it the Sendai castle, hehe. Yeah ok. There's some other pics of a temple or something, I just don't want filter through them now, so later on those.

-"I am a life form born into a sea of information"

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 07:57:52 GMT

I figured I put some pics up that make me happy!

Ghost in the Shell: SAC
I have the laughing man syndrome!

I'm not sure if this is good, but I turned down the chance to visit Tokyo Disney, just b/c I was going to miss the OC tonite. Yeah, they play that here. How lame eh? Japanese school girls are HOT!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 04:06:42 GMT

I live like 5 minutes from this lake.
Last nights sunset, this is the best one. The rest didn't really turn out. I'll take more later today.

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 03:43:29 GMT

Go Michigan St. Spartans! To bad my Stanford didn't make it.
Baylor I can't root for you I have a grudge against ur team.

*edited* 4/6 11:04 am (Well, I have to give Baylor much respect, they out hustled, out played and wanted it more, Good Job!)

Starting the countdown............8 days untils b-day. Apr 13th. is my best day of the year!

I think I'm going to spend my whole week before camp drunken, jet lag, mo fo. Just to get it out the way before I disappear into the woods. I'll be 3 weeks late for camp ouch! Then I must go into Role Model form.

My amazing friend who is so far away

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 03:33:34 GMT

I always seem to have these deep conversation with my friend Roz on msn, but most of the time it's not like at the sametime, back and forth. We're always leaving messages and getting back to each other. I justed wanted to post this.
When I wrote her early I was talking about letting the infinite fill me and letting go. No no matter what whe eventually do, we will always have to deal with the nothingnes. I used some other words and talked about a few other things, but that was my base. I'm a littly hazy about at the moment. I just woke up! So i'm posting so I can try to remember this later.

Roslyn says:
I checked out your pics ...the white mask was pretty creepy hahaha thank-you very entertaining yea no definate plans for this summer as well as for you I realize that no matter what, I as a female human being just puts things into perspective can't go any where with ou t letting go. I'm tired of being weighed down...there
Roslyn says:
just re saying it refirms it
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another thing I was thinking about...why is it that we put so much importance or soooo much stress on ourselves or why are we so ooooo hard on ourselves when techinically everything is really ok and there is nothing really to fear since this is a boy and girl planet
Roslyn says:
I find often even the grown up s are kids
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so if we all could just realize that we are a bunch of boys and girls on this planet maybe people could just lighten up and dance and sing and be happy to meet new boys and girls
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you know what I mean or maybe I am just taking crazy
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like we could all celebrate each other
Roslyn says:
and emphasize our talents etc. and then you meet people who compliment each other cuz we are all working together as boys and girls have a good time
Roslyn says:
and then maybe we could get rid of words like civiliztion and society etc. and we could just all be a bunch of boys and girls living in houses
Roslyn says:
people wouldn't be such deep thinkers then cuz it wouldn't be necessary and we would all be helping each other out...if someone had a dream a bunchy of us could help them go to it we could all help each other out to find what we are looking for
Roslyn says:
no one person would really want to conquer the world because we would be celebrating each human beings existence acknowledging that they have a purpose and placement and then no one human being would be bogged down by the idea that they have to save the world because we would all ...boys and girls realize that sometime in the future that awesome person would return for this planet
Roslyn says:
Yea and then all of us boys and girls regardless of talents, paper which we use to buy things to live, "power" which is something invisible, class which is also invisible, opportunity, etc. so on and so on

She's so awesome!

We are lame

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 15:56:36 GMT

It's really sad, today my 15 old cousin has spent 10 hrs playing Final Fantasy X. Serously, I just went in his room to bother him, blocking the tv and stuff, it's so funny. He's definetely addicted to games and tv. I can't say I'm not but I do tend not to watch tv much especially when I'm at home. Since like only 4 of my friends have tv's and those are just for gaming systems. But really I'm from one of the most beautiful place on earth, there's really no reason to spend a day inside unless it's raining but u can paintball or do all kinds of stuff still. I personally like frolicking in the woods.

Ok, Japanese tv is hilarous, they have the most craziest shows and commercials. I'm always ROFL! Even though I don't understand a word. I can say culture is Awesome! They have a few flaws(certain laws) but there ok. Well, they brought me, ANIME! Brilliant, brilliant! So stoked, today I got to watch Gundam Seed, ahh,yes, I LOVE japanime! Other great news bought plane tickets today, will return home on Apr 11th if everything goes ok at my hearing. Won't know until the 7th. I'm optimistic though since they said to buy my tickets between certain days. I know all I talk about is home. It's just u know it's HOME! Shalom!

My sister told me I need a little more culture, hilarously funny! I get told that from my family all the time. I said maybe I go to a black college when I get older, my sis was like" When u get older, hmmm". Yeah like I'm turning 22 on Apr. 13th. How much older do I need to get, hehe. Ok, Shalom!

Something about me

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 15:39:45 GMT

1. WHAT IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME? Shantai
2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Light blue pinstriped pajamas
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Camera Obscura
4. DEAD OR ALIVE, NAME THREE PEOPLE YOU WOULD LOVE TO MEET: Angeline Jolie, Confucius, and Ptolemy
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Spicy Chicken dog
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Green
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Cold, and Beautiful!
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED WITH ON THE PHONE? Anton
9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Do I notice them?? Nah, there Faces
10. SHOES YOU LOVE TO WEAR: Nikes, addidas,flip-flops, Dc, Osiris,Etnies,vans
11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Educated, a open book
12. FAVORITE DRINK? H2O!
13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Long Islands or Vodka tonics
14. FAVORITE SPORTS? Softball, Beach Volleyball, and Ultimate Frisbee
15. HAIR COLOR? Drk Brown
17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nay
18. TYPE OF VEHICLE YOU DRIVE: My Human Body or Public Transportation, being a passenger
19. TOP 5 FAVORITE FOODS: Garlic, Pizza, Pasta with spinach and goat cheese,Salmon with wild rice and veggies, Anything garlicky,
20. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Kumar and Harold
21. TOP 3 PET PEEVES: Smacking, Narrow-Minded People, and asshole beggars.
22. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Yes
23. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS BETTER? I like Donnie Darko and The Brotherhood of the a Wolf, can that be a answer?
24. WINTER, SPRING, SUMMER, FALL? Spring
25. HUGS OR KISSES? I like Both, but Hugs
26. Favorite National Park? I have 2: Grand Teton NP and Glacier NP
27. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Vanilla
28. THREE ANIMALS YOU WANT TO OWN. A Dog, Box-Shell Turtle, and a Whistle Pig
29. NAME 4 PLACES YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO VISIT: Turkey, Iceland, Ireland, Seychelles
30. FIRST CONCERT YOU EVER WENT TO? Janet Jackson Velvet Tour, got free tickets
31. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? Wandering. Vacationing in Japan on Military base
32. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? The Stranger-Albert Camus, Situation-Sartre, Ishmael-Daniel Quinn
33. WHAT IS ON YOUR SCREEN SAVER AT HOME? It just turns off
34. FAVORITE CARTOON? Simpson, Futurama, G.I. Joe, Wolf Rain, I prefer anime: Witch Hunter Robin, Ghost in the Shell:Stand Alone Complex, The Excel Saga
35.FAVORITE SMELLS: Potchouli, Flowers blooming
36. SMELLS YOU HATE: Rotten Meat and Pheasant
37. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Can I sleep more, I need water!
38. FAVORITE THING YOU LIKE ABOUT THE SINGLE LIFE: Not having someone worrying about me.
39. HOW DO YOU EAT AN OREO? I eat Newman O's,but you smash em and put them into Vanilla Bean Ice Cream,ahh, so tasty!
40. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND TO THIS BLOG? No one, unless you want to